love the skin you're in!
Saturday, November 14, 2009 10:33 PM
Do you ever get that feeling that sometimes you are so insignificant as compared to some people you know?Or that feeling when you envy something so much and you just want to be a part of it, or you wish that it could be like that for you because of what you hear other people say?
I think I've kind of been having that feeling for the whole year, that's somewhat why I haven't been enjoying it. But it just feels great, when you have those moments when you realise that there's something about that person or thing that you want that makes you appreciate yourself again. It's not as if there's something terribly wrong with it, it's just that you realise it's not the type of person you want to be, or you realise that it's not like what people say it is.
That's what I found out a few weeks ago. I somehow envied how some people can manage their time so well, do well in studies, be popular, etc. Then one day, BAM. I noticed something that just suddenly made me proud to be me and that I wouldn't want to be anything else other than that. I guess it has to do with the values that you live by, everybody has different values, and when I realised that the person that I kind of envied's values are just different from mine, it really just stopped me from envying that person.
Then, the whole year I have felt totally out of place in class. Like whenever there's free time, everybody would just break out into their cliques, and I wouldn't have one, so I'd end up doing work instead, which is just sad and I hated it. Then I always hear how the other class is so enthu, and they're the most bonded class in the level and such. And I kind of envied them, thinking that they were the 2GY of 2008. But then I had to sit in that class for a day for enrichment, and then I realised it totally wasn't like 2GY. Yes, they probably are bonded and are enthu, but the people who make up that class are not like the people that 2GY had. It's not a bad thing really, it's just a difference. And then I realise that I am thankful for my class now, if I had been there, I think I'd be worse off than I think I am now.
So my lesson is learnt, no matter who it is, what it is, there's always flaws, or just differences that makes you special.
But then again, there are the people who I have yet to find flaws of. The people who seem so talented, intelligent, popular and whatever, the whole package as people may call it. I mean, there are so many people who just admire them. Like really, really admire them. First hand experience. And I just wonder, how the heck do people do that? That is something really wow.
But till I figure out how, I still love me (:
3:51 PM
So, prefects' camp was last week. I don't really know what to make of it. It was the most tiring thing ever. The day would go something like this:Wake up in the morning
Go to school
Eat catered lunch after school
Go for camp which is basically a lot of brainwork, proposals, presentations and such.
Go to sleep late
And then wake up for school again the next day.
I guess it was quite fun, it didn't feel much like the camp I had in sec 1 with Su, even though Su was there as well. I was in ENIGMA, with Smalley, See-toh, Amierah, Vicky, Pei Yi, Kelyn, Megan, Ellis and Beverly. (:

The food at the camp was good (: but I don't know, this camp didn't have the same effect as the first camp did.
And that was the last one I'd be having ever.
I think it was the having to go to school that kind of ruined it.
On the last night, we stayed up so late, that by the time we finished debrief and stuff it was 4+am already. So 12 of us (tis, debbie, siew, celine, ruth, gaya, shana, meiyin and sha) went to Mr Prata with Ms Lee and Mrs Fern. It was 5am and we walked towards CCAB, making a lot of noise on the way and it was very fun (:
I had an ice-cream prata (yes, 5am, I know) and we just talked a lot. I can't really remember what happened, I think that's what a hangover is like right? Haha
We still had school that day, so the teachers bought us Red Bull to drink so that we'd stay awake in school.
And that, was the first ever time I stayed awake for more than 24hours. No, I didn't even do that during twentyfour, thank goodness. I have totally learnt my lesson now.
Red Bull has this really weird taste, according to tisa it's liquified candy, but I think I would've enjoyed that. So I drank it up anyway, and then we went around going "GOOD morning, _____" to everyone we saw. By the time we got to the LT for chem lesson, I died. I slept through the whole thing and I had to get JY to teach me how to do it. I basically slept through every lesson.
I'd like to thank ANGANG for helping me highlight my SS notes, because I really turned off then.
So finally school ended and we could go home, Smalley's mum brought me back and I felt like really sick in the car, the puking feeling. So I did when I reached home. Terrible feeling. I slept for very very long afterwards and then I didn't go to school for the next two days.
I went for Parent's Night on Friday evening even though I didn't go for school that day, because I don't know, I really wanted to. Now everything I'm doing with the PB would be the last time I can do it. And I had missed parent's night last year, so no way I was going to miss it again. My mum didn't even come though.
It was semi-fun I guess. Sat in the dark, secluded little loner corner with huijun, momo, xingyi and pleebo. But it was fun (: Then afterwards I went down to the lobby to await my mum's sms reply but it never came, so I kind of sat next to a lot of people who would just come by. Then went back up to help clear up and then camwhore a little and then went home.
my love
Thursday, November 12, 2009 7:48 PM
This is my new baby
Love at first sight, much? Very very much. (:
I'm just worried that my phone bill will burst this month.
we'll make the great escape
Friday, November 06, 2009 1:40 PM
Haven't updated for exactly 2 weeks! And so much has happened. Yay so I think I'll make posts about different random events that has happened (:Penang Kedah trip with exco!
This is actually one of my favourite school trips that I've been on, first one will always be Kinabalu because that was just utterly amazing and it made me do things I thought I never could (: But anyway, this trip. We kind of found out we were going to go for it a week before the trip, so it was completely out of the blue. My first thought of it was that it would be actually really cool because it was so impromptu and spontaneous. What's more is that it is an honour, only 12 people from the whole school were asked to go, and those 12 people included me. In addition, it was like a getaway. Just this sudden trip you take to get away from life, horrible exam results etc. The scary part was that we were travelling with two of the principals and one teacher, for 8 of us.

Roadside chendol

Look at the amount of FOOD!
Peranakan Museum where they filmed Little Nyonya!
Tau sa pia place
ME + YOU, I'MMA TELL YOU 1 TIME.
The trip really isn't like any other school trips, because unlike other school trips, there wasn't actually a planned out, structured itinerary. Like we could randomly stop at a roadside to go eat chendol or spend horrendously long times starving while waiting to eat famous char kway teow, and we also didn't have any lights out or anything, so we could stay up as late as we wanted, camwhoring, playing cards, doing crazy things.
I think the school visit itself was really enriching, you don't often get to visit schools from another country and see how they run their things, and the way they run their things is really different. Like they have 3 different uniforms for the school, 1 for prefects, 1 for muslim students, and 1 for non-muslim students. They showed us this arts and crafts exhibition that the students did, and the things that they made were amazing! Like shirt folders, and the one thing that was really fascinated me, was this egg carton folded into two, one way up it would be a castle, you turn it around it was an office. It's so creative! We also met the exco from the school, I remember some of their names! Hana, Jocelyn, Raihan, Sasha... :D The 60th PB is one lucky bunch of people.
We were stuffed this trip. Like really. The first night, we went to this hawker centre kind of place, and everytime the principals left the table, they'd come back with 3 more plates of food. And we were all bloated till the food reached our throats or something.
Everywhere we went was fun, because we can talk non-stop and we would sing everywhere we went, in the van, in a train, along the roads. Favourite songs to sing: A, A, ME + YOU, I'MMA TELL YOU ONE TIME, JAIII HOOOOOO, etc. etc. It was so fun! The newest invention, and fad I'm gonna tell you that, because it's hell catchy: TTMAM (tee-tee-ma'am). To the Max and MORE! Gaya kept saying t-tam at first, but after several corrections she finally got it right, and she says it everywhere now.
Then night times, omg, night times. I love my hotel roomies TTMAM. :D:D Gaya, Shana and Shen-nen are the CRAZIEST, FUNNEST people to room with. Night times were where the real fun happened. Camwhored like crazy, we became rap stars, gaya was gross throwing things everywhere, listening to Gaya's tamil music on her phone, camwhoring, playing cards, singing, camwhoring, laughing till we wanted to die.
The second night was so WTH. Shen-nen and I were in bed, ready to go to sleep, and then suddenly we heard the doorbell ring. So Shen-nen went to look through the peep-hole and no one was there. We asked Shana and Gaya, and they told us they didn't do it. So then we were like, NEVER MIND. LET'S GO TO SLEEP. But then after like five minutes, the door bell rang again. So Shen-nen and I kind of screamed and ran over to Shana and Gaya's room and crammed ourselves into their bed. So four of us were squished in one bed, and Gaya refused to sleep in front of the mirror so she kept crawling over Shen-nen and Shana to keep out of the mirror. I slept on about 1/10th of a pillow that night. The next day, Gaya conveniently told us that the second time the door bell rang, it was them. Shen-nen and I were like OMGWTHBBQ.
On the plane ride back, Shana and I sat next to this American man, who apparently was a farmer, then worked for Bush, and is now a CEO of some company because Obama came in and he was the democratic party or something. Everyone I tell this to tells me that he was lying to our faces, but I don't really know about that, it's kind of a hard story to come up with right? He tried to help us get the day off after. HAHA, totally failed.
I finally understand the reasoning behind Fart-lanna.
@ the coastal depositional landform!
Friday, October 23, 2009 4:53 PM
Went to Sentosa on Monday during our holiday in-lieu of Deepavali with SCBT (:I am totally broke now, srsly!
We met at Vivo at like 10, they went to buy some entertainment to play with at the beach (and anywhere else really), i.e. Ball and water gun
Then we took the train over to IMBIAH station and we went on the LUGE and SKYRIDE.
I was freaking worried that I'll crash, topple over and then injure myself the first time we took the luge, but then I realised that it's really nothing. Sky ride was HILARIOUS when I sat next to PF. She would scream and scream and so I'd try to start shouting out random songs to get her to sing with me. Like... ALL THE SINGLE LADIES, keep holding on, sugar we're going down, etc. etc. We picked songs that fit the ride. Hehe.
The helmets for the Luge are quite gross though. Imagine the number of people who had put that helmet on before and sweat like crazy. Or have dandruff. D:
Had lunch, then went to the Southern most point of Continental Asia.
We went on the beach and played with the ball in the water. I had to go all the way into the water to get the ball, because I have the longest legs, so my shorts got soaked.
My bag dropped onto the wet sandy beach! ): What a beach.
We then went to 7-11 to rest for a while. Got a Super Big Gulp to share!
Then we wanted to go for this close encounter with some bird thing, so we set off in the direction we thought was correct, but then we realised it was the wrong direction and the place had been right opposite 7-11 all along. Sheesh. Turns out we couldn't even touch the bird, so we went for our last ride on the luge.
Then we went to this Cable Car shop and Joe and Siew joint bought a rubber hand, which has up to this day, scared a hell lot of people in school.
Then we played bridge on the floor while waiting for Wen Hui and Antje to come and eat. I SUCK AT BRIDGE. But it's so fun! Random tourists would stop and watch us playing, and apparently someone tried to learn. Haha!
We then went back to the beach and played some more. Once again I got totally wet because I have the longest legs AND SOME PEOPLE CAN'T THROW PROPERLY. Then we played volleyball, and if you missed you had to do push ups. Then we played rugby with holes in the sand, and then we would sit on each others holes so the opposition couldn't score. Genius!
Finally went back to Vivo at 7++, long ride home.
Lesson learnt from this trip: BRING A FRIGGIN TOWEL. Wiping yourself with tissue paper isn't very effective.
ta hui shi ni fa shao!
Sunday, October 18, 2009 12:48 AM




OMG I LOVE THIS BOY.
I couldn't find the picture when he first appears in the movie. That was the EPIC aaron johnson moment!
PF and I were grabbing on to each other going OMG OMG OMG OMG!!!
And the English accent is just sighhhh.
I need to go to Britain and get myself a Brit Boy. Hehe.
Such a hottie. Sigh.
GEE GEE GEE GEE
Saturday, October 17, 2009 1:02 AM
Ok just watched Gossip Girl episode 4, and there is NOBODY around that I can talk to about it, so what better place than here right? This is what blogs are for.Episode 4 is my favourite out of the... 4 I've watched. :D
OMG the way that Chuck Bass is so freaking awesome and sweet to Blair while being the same egomaniac that he is. And the way there is a possible love story even though it's not an ideal pairing, but it's still great. And Nate was really cute for the short screentime that he had. And there was on Georgina in the episode today! And Eric is so cute even though he's gay. Never liked Jenny in the first place so never mind.
Okay. That little bit's done. Feels somewhat satisfying. OH, I was watching it, and then I realised that PF's mannerisms and way of speaking is somehow a lot like Hilary Duff's... Agree to disagree, but that is seriously the first thing that came into my mind when I was watching! Haha, I don't know whether it's a good thing or bad thing.

Glee is my new second favourite TV show (: This show choir thing is really catching on. But I love the show because they make cool covers like Halo/Walking On Sunshine/No Air/Somebody to love/It's My Life/Confessions pt II/a lot more. These people can really sing too! Their dancing isn't the best, but it's watchable. Haha. Guy in the middle up there is cute even though he's really wrinklified there. And OMG KURT IS THE BEST. ALL THE SINGLE LADIES ALL THE SINGLE LADIES (he's the one bottom center). Ah well, I'm not good with words so I don't know how to do those gushing posts about how awesome things/people/whatever are, I'm just doing my best! (:
So favourite songs/clips so far below :D They may be deleted tomorrow, but whatever.
post exam fun (:
Thursday, October 15, 2009 8:19 PM
It's really hard to believe that exams only ended 3 days ago. But I think it seems so long ago because I've been cramming so much into these 3 days.Went to watch FAME (i'm gonna live foreverrr) on monday with nat and meiyin. We went to the Polo Club to have lunch first and OMG it was so cheesy. Everything we had except for drinks and desert had cheese in it: ceasar salad, cheese fries and pizza. But it was REALLY filling and it was fun (:
I started to rain after a while, but it was so pretty.
We then went to Cine to watch Fame but went around window shopping a bit first.
So, Fame.

Really great dancing and singing, but the storyline was just so non-existent! Like it would jump from year to year and like one year you'd see the person, and the next year, "Oh I'm going away now". So it really wasn't much plot or anything. But the dancing was OOH. and singing, Asher Book's voice is AWESOMENESS. But he's not all that hot (hear that nat and umi). Kay Panabaker's in the movie! I think the Panabaker sisters are awesome because they're so pretty :D

Went shopping some more after the movie, then meiyin left and nat and I ate dinner at taka and went shopping some more. The way Nat shops is scary! HAHA.
So then Tuesday had Halogen Leadership Challenge, I shall post the pictures when they all come up. It was quite fun, but I hated waking up at practically normal school time. There went my marking day. After the Leadership training went to PF's house to hang for a while before we went to meet Siew and Wen Hui and have dinner. Then we went to Joe's house and we watched Yours, Mine and Ours, which has Danielle Panabaker.

I had to leave like halfway through the movie because my mum came because she said she was tired. I like that movie though :D It's much better than Cheaper By the Dozen.
Yesterday had Leadership Challenge again, it was fun! The arm wrestling (where I was merely a watcher, arm wouldn't survive otherwise) and the bridge playing. HAHA. That's only the fun part of course. I just went home and watched Glee and SI after that.
Had socila and fine dining etiquette enrichment today. It was quite fun! But I felt like sleeping a lot of times. The 5-course meal was okay, not the best of hotel food, but that's expected. It felt so weird eating so slowly, very restricted. But it was fun. Played bridge with like our little exclusive bridge club of Sandy, Deborah, Chris, Jacq and Amanda. Hahaha played with Uno cards again, it's like our secret code, nobody understands how we can play like that!
Then went to Island with Nat, Meiyin, Chris, Gaya, Shana, Kelly and Sherilyn. We basically just ate ice-cream and camwhored. That's about it.
So overall it's been good, but I am so exhausted. Haven't actually had a day of real rest. Results come out tomorrow. OMG FREAKING SCARED, especially for LIT and PHYSICS. I can't fail an exam ): I really can't afford to ):


